I thought eight hours of school was prison, until the stay at home order was issued. Never have I thought in a million years we would be living through something like this, but here we are. And there is nothing we can do about it. Or is there?
It has been a while since I have woken up to an empty schedule. No school, no work, no church. No community.
I expected to feel a lot different. I thought that i’d have a hard time not being the person that I am used to being. A student, a friend, a coach, a mentor, a leader. But surprisingly, I am doing really well. At first, I contemplated if I was a bad person to feel this way.
“Do I feel good because I’m not needed?” ” Am I really this lazy?” “Am I going to have the same drive and love for people when all of this is over?”
I’ve came to the conclusion that I was lacking self-care. I never had time to have a full 8 hours of sleep. I didn’t have time to paint or draw. I didn’t make time to walk my dogs or go on picnics with my family. I didn’t make time to incorporate what I always knew I needed, and that was time for myself.
Obviously there is nothing we can do about the corona outbreak, but there is so much we can do for ourselves. This isn’t a time for panic, but a time for breakthrough. How cool is it that even during troubling times, god still allows for opportunity. There are no more excuses. Take this time discover who you are again without so many influences at your face. No one is around to judge you, or comment on your opinions. The public is closed, but your doors are open. If there is one thing that I can take from this experience is that life shouldn’t be made up of pressure and speed, but comfortability and pace.
Maybe we can go back to normalcy with a different outlook, a new balance. We can be better, not for others but for ourselves, which in the end is better for everyone. We can appreciate our teachers for the sacrifices they make for our well-being, and the essential workers who sacrifice their lives to make sure we are equipped, and finally our families for sticking together despite how hard it may be.
To those who are struggling during this time, pray. Talk to god about your feelings, and reach out to those you trust. Thanks to technology, we aren’t completely without. From the bottom of my heart, I hope that you can make it through this and that your strength overpowers your doubts. Remember that there are brighter days to come, focus solely on that.